Its a strange feeling. Something myself, amazing neices(sisters really) Lisa and Sheryl and my sister Christine i think all share. We are all sad, we all feel a huge, undescribable loss, but strangely we`re also filled with an inner strength. An amazing ability to remain smiling, to still laugh. In truth and personally speaking i can only tell you that i`ve been filled with something truly wonderful. To be carrying the unbelievable honour to be the son of an angel has given me the power to smile, something that i imagined would never happen again. My mum (muv as i liked to call her) cannot simply be descibed in words alone, in fact, i cannot express my feelings in simple words, its impossible. I know shes with me now every second of every day and although i cannot see her i KNOW shes right by my side as she is with all of us who knew her in life. When you smile, thats her, When you laugh, thats her. When you say something that probably doesnt make sense as it should, thats her and when you have out of date food in your house, believe me....that IS her...To all who dont understand that comment i`ll explain. She had SO much food in her house there was no way she could keep track of it all, Tesco itself would have struggled to cope. Hence you could always guarantee there would be an item or three well passed its sell by date, something that we all laughed about. So when you do feel sad just think about muv, i guarantee you`ll be looking at a happy thought, i know i do and i love it. Just my thoughts for the day. Please smile - its her favourite thing to do!